We have a long history together. Years of unbroken partnership. Through thick and thin, we have ridden the storms and the waves together. There were times when I had another lover by the side. I’m afraid that necessity was laid on me to do so. Again and again, you left me in the cold and I had to find solace in the arms of another woman. My other women were always temporary. I made no promises to them. My heart was always with you though you broke and shred it again and again.
You Leave Me In The Cold
I am not naive. I really, really believe that people do not change once they mature into adulthood. You have not changed over the years. Every now and then, you pull your stunts again and again. Sometimes, the crisis is short. At other times, it drags on. But again and again, you find ways to prove me right. People do not change.
For a while, I have told everyone who cared to listen that I no longer wanted to keep two women. Or three. Not that I thought there was a problem with that. It was my choice. For a change, I wanted to travel light. Just you. No-one but you. For a few months now, I have managed it quite well. We have been everywhere together. Just the two of us.
But today, you pulled one of your stunts again. You shut me out and gave me the cold shoulder. We had taken a ride out together, and out there, far from home, from friends, and in the midst of total strangers, you disappeared without notice. As you have done before, you left me out in the cold. Isolated. My frantic SMS messages didn’t go through. Neither did my calls. WhatsApp, Twitter, and all communications channels simply failed. I was all alone in the world.
Sitting by the wayside, I watched people come and go. I thought to myself how nice it would be had I another woman into whose arms I could run at that time. Someone to provide me communication. I so, so needed to talk, to reach out and to be reached. I needed warmth and comfort. I felt so cold.
I fretted, and worried myself sick but got no word from you. Alone, I set out on the lonely journey back home under the burning tropical sun. I was left in the cold in the sweltering heat. The trip back home was a horrible one. I kept trying to reach out, but always without success.
Then, just when I was almost home, out of the blues you showed up once again. True to form, you offered no apologies. It was business as usual. You went to do your thing and you were back. The world had not ended. All was well again.
I love you and have refused the option of divorce till now. After all, what are the chances that your replacement will not be as bad? However, I am sure now that I want me another woman. I want a warm ravishing refuge for me during these periods of mad crises of yours. I must say that you really do test me. You test me sorely, dear Glo.